How I Cope

I started writing music when I was 15. It’s the way I have always coped with life.

I discovered I could write music

Growing up in an abusive home, not being able to talk about it, I discovered I could write music about my feelings, and it was kind of like sharing what was going on. It saved my life.

Writing a new song despite vision loss

So, as my vision began to decline, and I was finding it difficult to see music and play, I became really discouraged. So, I decided to do what has helped me in the past: I wrote a song.

No way to share it as an audio file here, but I thought others might enjoy the lyrics:

I’m sitting in the backseat of my car. Sitting in the back seat of my car. 'Cuz my macular is on the rise, and now I can no longer drive. And sometimes I see things that aren’t there.

So I’m trying to find who now is me, and sit in back just like I’m three and wait to find out just what happens next.

And still be grateful, not be blue 'cuz there’s a lot I still can do but damnit sometimes I’m just really scared.

So I’m not blind but I can’t see, it’s really strange now to be me but as each day passes I’ll just do my best... and ride with friends and laugh a lot and just be happy with what I’ve got and let the others drive me here and there.

So wave if you see me, I’m the one who doesn’t drive, you’ll see me in the back seat of my car.

Yeah I’m sitting in the backseat of my car. Sitting in the backseat of my car... that’s where I am!